Keeping Perspective

While I was at a Hallmark store yesterday (where I finally found a baby book that was adaptable for an adoption!), the phone rang. It was a new social worker (they had warned me that there would be a lot of social workers who would be involved), this one is involved in "investigations" -- I guess documenting everything needed to legally terminate the parental rights for the birth parents.

She had called to let me know that the birth mother has requested a final "goodbye" visit with her baby My heart stopped about then, but the social worker reassured me by telling me that she asked the birthmom, point-blank, "are you thinking of changing your mind, do you want the baby back?" to which the birthmom responded "absolutely not"

I'll feel a lot better after the visit, which will be well supervised to make sure she doesn't kidnap Amanda (!).

On the one hand, I really feel for this woman. She has given us the most precious gift anyone has ever given us. And I've given birth, so I know that when you first see the baby after it's born, you're in a daze. I guess she just wants to be more cognizant of seeing her one last time. A friend of mine helped me see how sweet it is for Amanda, to be able to know that her birthmom really cared. Still, it's nerve wracking...

I don't know yet when the visit will be. I asked the social worker if there was any way we could schedule it for after the weekend, since at least the 14 day timeline for when the birthmom could ask for the baby back with no questions asked will have passed. The social worker thought that just might work, so perhaps the visit will be Monday?

Deep down, I believe it's going to be o.k. But I'll be glad to have it over!

On another note, Amanda only woke once last night -- so we all basically got a full nights sleep. Whoo-hoo!!!

Melissa